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RE: very sad
By Lisa, in the same boat

I totally identify with you. i just said to myself moments ago that i might as well try
to accept the fact that i will not have my own classroom this year. I graduated in May with honors with a K-6 teaching degree (undergrad)
and applied everywhere in the area (CT). After subbing part time for two years while in college in one town and student teaching there as well and having great references from cooperating teachers and supervisors and being told that
i 'interview very well' i was passed over for 'people who knew people' for the few positions this town had available and did not even GET an interview

with them, I was out of luck and furious. Few other towns had an elementary openings at all and the few that did had 1 or 2 which were undoubtedly 'promised' to others. I totally identify with all of you who are struggling to accept this fact as you sit home during what would be your school day and think of what you SHOULD be doing right then- spending time with your class and doing some fun lesson. I've been in a state of denial, put my name on the sub list to sub in several towns and have begun my masters, but not until the first day of school did it really hit me that i should be in my own classroom right then and i was not. each morning i get up and get ready anticipating a phone call to come in and sub and so far one has not come since of course it is the beginning of the year so resentment grows each day as does the sadness as I sit home all day thinking about it and trying to keep myself busy.(money getting tight and paying for my own medical insurance isnt too fun either!) I totally agree with your sentiment that it seems like its all in who you know as I too know of other graduates (like you who have not passed the exam yet or who i personally know struggled through their student teaching, etc) who have jobs while i do not. you are not alone- i too wonder why i didnt get a job in the town i focused on while others did, if i will ever get a job, what i could possibly do differently to get a job next year and so on. i absolutely understand your resentment- it pains me to go back and sub in that town as i see fellow graduates and teachers that I subbed for last year that know me and have to face them knowing that I dont have my own teaching job. disgust and desparation are kicking in and i am completely disenchanted with what seems to be the hiring process. feel free to email me, we just have to keep our heads up and go full force come march or april to try again next year.