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teacher of 165 mom of 4
By teachermom

It's nice to hear that others experience the same dilemmas. I have 4 wonderful children and it seems that they end up coming last far too often. My husband, well, you can all imagine where he tends to fit into the picture.
It seems that I always start the year gung-ho but with my priorities straight. However, it seems that things spiral out of control rather quickly. The time demands are immense. By the time I meet everyone's needs, I feel like I'm ready for medication. My joy in life comes from watching my kids. They are talented, smart, funny. loving children. I make sure they get to soccer, softball,

voice lessons, etc, but the pace is franatic. I do love what I do, and I really am good at it which in itself is somewhat satisfying. However, the perfectionist in me takes over and no matter how much I do, I'm just never sure it's enough. It's not enough for my kids, my husband, my students, parents of students, anyone! Forget about having time for myself--there is no time left! If I get to that point where I just HAVE to have some quality "me" time, the GUILT sets in. Listen to me--what a pessimist. I LOVE my kids; I LOVE my wonderful husband; I LOVE my job. What's it going to take to get it all worked out?! I know for my best friend and coworker, it took almost dying (literally) from viral spinal meningitis. She now leaves at 3:45; she works out; she doesn't take work home; her evenings and weekends are hers with her family. I truly hope I don't lose sight of what's important this year (which promises to be extremely demanding). My family MUST come first; it took almost losing my best friend to put that in perspective! teachermom